2003-05-20 - 11:58 p.m.
fuck me

someone's been sleeping in my bed - dru hill

i don't know what i'm doing

i'm trying to fuck with matt

i want to make up with matt

i'm making an ass of myself

i admit it

i went out with jesus tonight

don't worry - he's straight

my honorary gay friend

gorgeous, well dressed, and all around hot

we talked, i felt better

but...

i got home, ignored matt, and went to bed

why am i such a fucker?

so, he comes to bed, tries to kiss me, i turn my back to him, get out of bed, and now here i am. he told me that just because he was angry with me didn't mean he didn't love me

i ignored him, and now here i am, typing, avoiding, fucking running from how i feel about him, about everything

what am i doing?

-take it / leave it-

older entries:
when the walls come tumbling down - 2007-08-17
long weekend - 2007-05-21
gays gone wild - 2007-04-22
fried and objectified - 2007-03-13
fried and objectified - 2007-03-13