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2002-09-04 - 11:12 p.m. nobody in this world ever gets what they want, and that is beautiful... - they might be giants we have a dining room set. monday, matt and i found this super rad 50's, or should i say mid-century set. it's so cool. we also bought a coffee table, and i finally got the antique fan i've always wanted. i love furniture from the 40's-50's. it's got way more personality than say ethan allen or whatever. the woman who owned the store was really cool. i might take some of my pieces in for her to buy. i've got this cool end table i picked up a few years back at an estate sale. i also have a lot of ashtrays. like those big 'ol boomerang stylee ones from the 50's. i used to have a thing for ashtrays. i'd like to maybe trade for these brushed steel shelves i saw. i love shelves. i also scored these rocking pinstriped slacks at a thrift store for like 3 bucks. yes. all in all, monday rocked. there's something really fucking great about knowing that someone you love is gonna be waiting for you when you come home. i've been single far longer than i've been in relationships. i love/d being alone. it's great to not have to worry about things as a "we". i am not one of those people who becomes a "we", and then talks shit about how awful being single is. being single does NOT equal being alone. now, don't get me wrong. i love having a boyfriend, and being in a relationship. especially since this is the first time i've lived with someone, and matt's only one of two people i could see myself living with. yes, i could see myself living w/ mando...sort of. ahh, forget i wrote that. not that i think about living w/ him. i just...forget it. oh god, now i feel like i totally have to explain myself. i love mando. he is a great, wonderful, special person. i was his first everything, and while he wasn't my first love/boyfriend, he was my first proper boyfriend. we're still great friends, and if i'm lucky we'll always be a part of each others lives. i DO NOT think about him, pine for him, carry a torch for him, etc. i think matt was worried about all that at first. he's admitted to not being crazy about the way mando and i interracted. now, he likes mando a lot. REALLY likes him. they even compared notes. i don't even want to know the details of that conversation. i just heard about the convo in general. oy. i'm a good kisser. that's all they'd tell me. whatever. i was at my friend chris's house after work. chris is my shleprock. he likes being the messenger of doom. i know he's basically a good person, and i like him. here's the perfect chris-ism: when i mentioned the furniture buying w/ my beloved, he immediately asked, "who gets the furniture if you guys break up?". THAT'S chris. i have to admit though, on the drive home from his house, he really had me thinking, 'who would get it?'. whatta bastard. i'm supposed to help my neighbor move some boxes from her garage tomorrow. she is so sweet. i love her. she brought matt, and i some cookies the other day. she LOVES matt. when he answered the door shirtless, she was like, "oh, you just made my day". when he looked back at me where i was sitting on the couch i thought i'd die. he looked so ridiculously cute. so embarrassed, and sweet. i love when he's shy. and i really shouldn't cuz i HATE when anyone brings that out in me. oy, don't lets start on THAT subject...goodnight. |
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