2006-06-26 - 11:42 a.m.
um......thanks?
lord, i can't change - lynyrd skynyrd oh, what a weekend. shirtless, sweaty dancing my ass off. fucking hotness. yesterday (sunday), we went to a bbq/pool party at a co-workers of mattys' house. this girl is super cool and nice and recently divorced well. this is the sort of social outing that i dread. although all of mattys co-workers have been nothing but nice....well, except for one fuckface pervy guy. anyway, i do like these people. however...... they're not people i'm around enough to feel comfortable with. matty gets a little uptight before these things and i get the same way for my own reasons, so, there's always a little friction between us. he was asking what i was gonna wear (so gay, i know) and i was trying to get the balls to wear a wifebeater but was getting embarrassed just thinking about it. so, he starts going, "you're not going to be like this all day are you?". i replied with, "fuck you, how 'bout i act like a raging twat all day?".....way mature. i didn't want to argue and stress matty out since the day was about him and not me, so, i apologized and kissed his soft, beautiful lips and told him how i was feeling and it felt good. matty apologized too, and we ended up screwing around. i have to say, we should have sex right before things that stress me out more often, because i felt really......loose, relaxed, you know? i mean, i know that only makes sense, but, i guess sometimes i'm a little slow on the uptake. also, when we were in the middle of things, my sweet boy told me how much it turned him on when i opened up to him. again, sometimes i'm such an idiot. opening my heart up is sexier than just opening my......other parts. alright, enough of that. check out what i got in my inbox, this morning: Shy Step 1: Accept that you�re sexy If you�re shy, you may not realize how many people find you sexy, but they do! It�s not unlike folks finding nerds and geeks super-attractive (consider the appeal of stars like Beck and Jason Mraz). There is a je ne sais quoi � an indescribable attractive quality � that shy people carry. It�s the mystique factor: When you�re not effusive in conversation, it makes others intrigued by what you�re thinking. Many people are drawn to that perceived vulnerability or just turned on by the challenge of getting to know what�s behind the shy face. In social settings, you don�t have to try to be someone you�re not�realize you�re already hot. the preceeding was sent to me by a dear friend whose name rhymes with snatches. i just thought i'd share because it's been a long time since i'd gotten any of these "helpful" little articles. i guess it's nice when people see these things and think of me. trying to encourage me or what have you. i'm in a good mood so it's sweet. later........
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