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2004-05-19 - 5:12 p.m. i'm still in love with you - the stills the days have been flying by. work's been hectic. no significant changes in my aunt. i hate the thought of her lying in a hospital bed at ucla alone. i mean, sure, we've been to see her, but, in the middle of the night, noone's there. i wonder if she can sense things, or hear. this friday, the doctor's want to meet with her kids, and husband to discuss things. i don't even want to think about that. i'm assuming what sort of "decisions" there are to be made, and i can't see anything good coming out of it. hopefully i'm wrong. it's so frustrating. everyone's so stressed out, and worried. i'm mostly worried about my grandparents. they're taking this so hard. my aunt is their eldest child. we've never lost anyone on my mom's side. i mean aunts, grandparents, cousins, uncles. we're so tightknit that it's just awful. matt's been a fucking champ. he's my king. seriously. i light my candle, pray, hope. the more time goes by, however, the harder it is to think she'll just wake up, or whatever. i believe that miracles happen. i really do. i guess my point is that as more time goes by, a miracle is all we can hope for. i hope i don't sound like i've given up. i have not. i'm getting sad. sooooo....let's just let that one marinate. in other news: i bought my shins tickets for june. that's cool. i found out that lollapolooza (sp?) is coming to ventura, this year. wow. that's very cool. it's two days long too. sonic youth, morrissey, the pixies. i'm orgasming as we speak. since i couldn't (didn't want to) go to coachella, this is a nice consolation. i need music. it's what helps get me through. now, on a completely gay note:
i didn't really wanna see this movie, but, when the commercials come on, i'm like, brad, orlando, and eric in skirts? i'm so there. it'll be masturbation fodder for weeks. later..... |
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