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2003-11-05 - 11:02 p.m. kiss me now that i'm older - the strokes i'm sick. tomorrow i have to go down to covina (a little over an hour away from smltwn) for a class/meeting thing for the baptism of my cousin's little girl. yes, i am once again going to be a godfather. i think it's kinda funny that the 'mo of the family is such a popular choice. you know what else is not so funny? when my sister and her boyfriend finally get their shit together and baptize my nephew's, i'm not sure that they'd even consider me. i would LOVE to baptize either one of them. my throat feels like i swallowed glass. have i mentioned that i'm a big baby when it comes to being sick? i'm sure that i have. it just sucks, you know? it's like, there's not a lozenge big enough. i taped the strokes on conan last night. they were terrific, of course. matt is now hooked on the o.c. alls i have to say about that is, it's about fucking time. get with the program, pretty boy. sheesh. i'm gonna sound like a complete tool, but, you know what's bugging me? the fact that i haven't been to the gym in 2 days. when i was there on monday, my throat was already bugging me, and i was just feeling generally lousy, and yet, there i was jogging on the treadmill. after about 20 minutes, i started hacking like a....hack saw? anyway, it was awful. this lady even came up and asked if i was okay. i could have died. i know, i'm an idiot for even going there in the first place. don't think i don't know that cuz i do. totally. i just think that you have to try. also, i think if you break down and say, 'oh, i'm totally sick. i can't get out of bed', well, then you won't get out of bed. you should at least try. i don't know. am i sounding tool-ish yet? i don't know what i think is gonna happen if i miss a coupla days. i guess i think that i'll like blow up. i know that's ridiculous, but, i'm just being honest. there is some part of me that thinks that. no matter how improbable that is. wow. that was pretty fucking honest. so, i care. and i have an irrational fear of being overweight. pretty shallow, i guess. ugh.. later |
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