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2002-07-05 - 9:40 p.m. everyone is beautiful...alright - charm farm i. am. exhausted. sex/drugs/house music. yesterday was pretty cool. car show, beer, bbq, family, fireworks. the usual. today, was....awesome. seems matt's first boyfriend, the one who popped his cherry, is a party boy. he's currently the "house boy" for an attractive older couple in orange county. we were invited to a post 4th bbq. it was so much fun. great food, good music, beautiful men. i've never been to a "bbq" like that before. they had go go boys, for chrissakes. |
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everyone was shirtless, and wearing square cut bathing suits.
i felt so out of place...at first. it was nothing pharmaceuticals, alcohol, and horniness couldn't take care of. typically i don't partake in more than the occasional j, but, when in rome, right? so, when the hosts gave matt, and i the tour, and we ended up in their bedroom, and they offered us a bump, well, whatever. the house was gorgeous. it overlooked the ocean, and was a showplace home. robbie, matt's ex, has the nicest little guesthouse. it's so cute. he really is a nice person. he's very cute, and blond haired, blue eyed, surfer boy looking. apparently, he screws them both seperately, and occasionally at the same time. i wouldn't even know how one gets into that line of work, but, to each his own. i wanted to ask, and he seemed like he'd tell me, but, i was too embarrassed. i guess matt and him met in high school, and they got it on about a year later, when they were both 15. he was matt's first, but matt wasn't his. they lose touch for months, sometimes years at a time. i really like him. i'm not at all turned off by the party boy lifestyle. i was friends w/ all the "sluts" in high school. and i never considered them sluts. they were having a good time. getting cock, and partying. if anything, i envied them. they were living the life i wanted. it wasn't easy being a gay boy in smltwn, lemme tell ya'. but, i digress. so, we're in robbie's little mini pad, smoking a bowl, and he asks if we were into 3 ways. matt answered no for the both of us. the truth is, if matt had been down, i woulda been into it. i don't wanna tackle that subject, but, maybe one day we can discuss it. in my limited experience, those things sorta just happen, you don't really plan to fuck around w/ 2 guys. so, he gets matt in one of his squarecuts, but, i steadfastly refused. i had on boardshorts and a wife beater when i showed up. i lost the wife beater, but that's as far as i was going. matt looked GREAT. so, we go out, and the go go boys are dancing, and the bartenders are making out w/ the guests, and people were getting freaky. we stayed until 7, and headed home. robbie was like, "dude, stay, you can stay here in my place". i woulda, but, matt was like, "nah, i gotta work early tomorrow". which he does. so, we thanked our hosts, stuck one last dollar in the go go boys g', and were off. robbie extended an open invitation to go over, and i for one would like to take him up on that. i've never been that close to wealth. it was intoxicating. even w/o the drugs. it was one of those rare oppurtunities. i told matt, that it was like a chapter out of less than zero. he laughed, and said, "shut up, screwball". god bless that kid. i love him. i really do. goodnight...